Broken…
I was so stupid…so stupid and blind to not see what I had and that you were all I needed, all I ever wanted. God now look at us, look at what I did? Look at what has happened and I just want to take it all away to fix it but it’s too late you won’t listen…
I wanted you to know that
I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away…
I keep your photograph and
I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
The diviner cried out in pain, muscles twitching as he fell to his knees, clutching at his chest, his heart was in so much pain in more ways then one. He could not handle this, it was too much. The abuse his body had taken, the loving warm stare and voice that used to caress him from his love..now turned cold stone and harsh, ever stabbing into him as a constant reminder of what he had done. His mistake of blind doubt for just a moment. It led to this, him being so alone, hurt, wounded and barely left alive in this condition and the one person he needed no longer cared. His own undoing….
Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away
You gone away, you don’t feel me here anymore
So there he lay on the floor, twitching and shaking silently. Blood seeping from the too deep wounds, no matter the stitches, the bluenette no longer mentally cared for his physical condition..why get better when there was nothing left to live for? So he let the blissful delirium take him away. For just a moment, just this little bit of time..Every thing was right, everyone was happy and as it was, as it should have been. Those strong tanned arms holding him, his imagination.., whispering to him words he’d thought he’d never hear again..
The worst is over now
And we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There’s so much left to learn
And no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
Still ever shivering, it was too cold, but it didn’t matter anymore. He was here, his silver haired savior soothing all his pains away, his mind was playing tricks on him from the blood loss, but he dreamed on and let this be real..How he wanted it to be real..
Cause I’m broken when I’m open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away
Slowly slipping, the lights were dimming softly..but that strong voice still called to him, saying his name and he wasn’t afraid. No, the Diviner was not afraid of the darkness that started pulling him back even as a harsh fit of coughing took his body…his pale skin slowly turning black..
Cause I’m broken when I’m open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away…
Suddenly there was a far sound…foot steps? Why? It didn’t matter Xemnas was here.. half glazed eyes barely registered a form bending over him, that same soothing voice calling urgently demanding that he wake up. Wake up? Why? He had what he wanted all along..that blissful scent of cinnamon and vanilla filling his nose as now true warm arms wrapped around him, his angel calling his name in a desperate voice…but it was so far away..
Cause I’m Broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone…
“VII! Diviner!!…Saix!! please, please don’t close your eyes! Don’t let go, please! I’m sorry!! Wake up, /Don’t/ leave me…” The silverette begged but it was too late..so much regret in both that was done, that was said but all the bluennette did was smile with half lidded eyes and a shaky black and blood stained hand lifted and pressed to the tanned cheek “w-why are you crying Xemnas?…” his voice was so soft, cracking from the effort of use “W-we’re together…that’s…all that…matters…” The silverette took the others hand in his own, he was trembling as tears rolled down his cheeks and onto the diviners cheeks “No..you’re leaving me. Saix please…I love you” He whispered softly and held the other closer. The bluenette just smiled again and placed a hand to the silverette’s chest “I’ll….still be…here…I love..y-you..too” he said lowly still thinking this was all in his head…but the warmth that covered his too cold skin let him relax as his body jerked in a small fit of coughs once more..then stilled and his eyes grew distant and lifeless, blood trickling out the corner of his lips. The Superior gave a sob and clutched the lifeless body to him and burried his face in blue locks, still pleading although it was already too late…
You gone away, you don’t feel me here anymore
Fullmoon - XemSai
Full Moon
Song Fic
One Shot
XemSai
Fullmoon - Sonata Arctica
Wow I was like 16 when I wrote this. This was dedicated to my dear Captain Bobbin. She’s a babe.
(Source: lokiswaifu)
Forever in Stone- XemSai
Forever in stone
One shot
XemSai
Oh fucking god I wrote this for my QCS practise.
(Source: lokiswaifu)
